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Don't even think about what's right or wrong, wrong or right..
'Cause in the end it's only you and me and no one else is gonna be around
to answer all the questions left behind..
And you and I are meant to be so even if the world falls down today,
you've still got me to hold you up
..and I will never let you down.
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there's nothing wrong with my name.
If you think you know me, read my blog and think again.
I'm imperfect and I'm Lovin' It.
I'm the only witness and the only person who can judge my life.
This is my blog so Click here if you hate it.
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there's nothing wrong with my name.
If you think you know me, read my blog and think again.
I'm imperfect and I'm Lovin' It.
I'm the only witness and the only person who can judge my life.
This is my blog so Click here if you hate it.
xp
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Date: Thursday, April 9, 2009
Wasn't able to update yesterday. The Radioactive chemical that was injected on me made me feel weak the entire day. Mother also did *hehe*. I guess she had absorbed the radiation my body received from the Imaging Room at the Nuclear Medicine Section during the Thyroid Scan.
*If you're gonna ask 'bout the results,the answer is "no good"*
Anyhow..
I should have been the numbest person in the world with your *adjective here* acts. Being so alone, wasted, uncared for and all + the way you treat me. Why do I always have to resist pain? When in fact, I could cry out these long-kept tears whenever I feel like doing it.
Anyway, I'm not gonna cry now.
"Weakness" is not just the sole connotation to "crying".
Crying also indicates "fighting", in some stupid fuckin' ways.
Fighting in a way that a person is able to express whatever "agony" is bothering him/her, gives comfort to his/her throbbing mind and heart. And even soul. It denotes that the person has enough strength to withstand such tough odds, and for the good, in the unforeseen moment of time, enables a person to think niftily and effectively all over again.
to think about.. VENGEANCE?
Naaah. Not vengeance. But the best act in response to whatever that has wreak havoc on that someone else's part. Crying clears out the mind of the person. Helps her ponder thoroughly on the things that has been happening around her. I mean, the "flaws". And helps the mind to mull over good possible resolutions.
Life has been so cruel. To some like me?
Whatever the pain, the misery, one is going through.. maybe a good cry can help. Somehow.
If only pain doesn't set off tears, I think, I should have *done something* (crying without tears looks terribly insane!) But if all the tears, crying, sadness and weakness are on account of that same person, or reason, and pain is almost consistent, crying is already of less help. *Stupid thing to do actually*.
Oh well..I think I just have to stick to the idea that the person I care for so much doesn't or had already stopped minding me especially this fuck-that-bitch feelings of mine. Getting hurt, feeling bad, jealous.. Holy crap!
*But maybe she's gotten used to it. Hurting me and doing a lot of stuff? Maybe.*
It's okay to cry as hard and as long as you want to, just make sure that when you stop crying, YOU WON'T CRY FOR THE SAME REASON ANYMORE. *But hey! I just did!*
A quote was sent by a friend:
"Masarap malamang mahalaga ka sa isang tao. Masarap isiping ayaw ka nya mawala. Pero ang mahirap at masakit ay yung umasa ka na mahalaga ka sa kanya, pero pag naipit sya sa mga pinapahalagahan nya, IKAW ang isusuko nya"
--may naalala ko haha.xp
Dearest Someone,
Sana nagagawa mong isipin kung ano mararamdaman ko sa mga ipinapakita/ikinikilos mo.
Much Much Love,
BEST.
*If you're gonna ask 'bout the results,the answer is "no good"*
Anyhow..
I should have been the numbest person in the world with your *adjective here* acts. Being so alone, wasted, uncared for and all + the way you treat me. Why do I always have to resist pain? When in fact, I could cry out these long-kept tears whenever I feel like doing it.
Anyway, I'm not gonna cry now.
"Weakness" is not just the sole connotation to "crying".
Crying also indicates "fighting", in some stupid fuckin' ways.
Fighting in a way that a person is able to express whatever "agony" is bothering him/her, gives comfort to his/her throbbing mind and heart. And even soul. It denotes that the person has enough strength to withstand such tough odds, and for the good, in the unforeseen moment of time, enables a person to think niftily and effectively all over again.
to think about.. VENGEANCE?
Naaah. Not vengeance. But the best act in response to whatever that has wreak havoc on that someone else's part. Crying clears out the mind of the person. Helps her ponder thoroughly on the things that has been happening around her. I mean, the "flaws". And helps the mind to mull over good possible resolutions.
Life has been so cruel. To some like me?
Whatever the pain, the misery, one is going through.. maybe a good cry can help. Somehow.
If only pain doesn't set off tears, I think, I should have *done something* (crying without tears looks terribly insane!) But if all the tears, crying, sadness and weakness are on account of that same person, or reason, and pain is almost consistent, crying is already of less help. *Stupid thing to do actually*.
Oh well..I think I just have to stick to the idea that the person I care for so much doesn't or had already stopped minding me especially this fuck-that-bitch feelings of mine. Getting hurt, feeling bad, jealous.. Holy crap!
*But maybe she's gotten used to it. Hurting me and doing a lot of stuff? Maybe.*
It's okay to cry as hard and as long as you want to, just make sure that when you stop crying, YOU WON'T CRY FOR THE SAME REASON ANYMORE. *But hey! I just did!*
A quote was sent by a friend:
"Masarap malamang mahalaga ka sa isang tao. Masarap isiping ayaw ka nya mawala. Pero ang mahirap at masakit ay yung umasa ka na mahalaga ka sa kanya, pero pag naipit sya sa mga pinapahalagahan nya, IKAW ang isusuko nya"
--may naalala ko haha.xp
Dearest Someone,
Sana nagagawa mong isipin kung ano mararamdaman ko sa mga ipinapakita/ikinikilos mo.
Much Much Love,
BEST.
And I want you so much..
That I just can't resist you
Bey Caday
Chris Tiu
John Siegfred
I Miss You..
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